Real & Ra: wearing the happy mask
June 2022 entry
Please do not misunderstand this perspective as disbelief towards mental health disorders.
This perspective is rather a higher strength and ideology that takes away the disorders’ power in one’s life.
My intention is to share with honesty.
I have experienced years of struggle inside my own mind. I have come to realize I simply lost my soul.
In turn, I subconsciously chose to dishonor myself instead of healing.
Years of working on my mind have gotten me to the point I am at now: living in the present.
Growing up, anyone who saw me as a child called me “smiley Rylie” because I simply lived through a love for life. My mom described me as the most happy go lucky child. I lost hold of that truth during high school. I attempted to live in a happy manner, yet this was not the truth. My constant use of the mask of happiness delayed my healing process and gave me a distorted perspective of self.
I can now see that is because there was so much hurt lingering. There was hurt worsening inside which needed to be processed before I could live through my true, happy soul once again.
Evolution, and growth was inevitable, yet the more I held off, the worse my suffering became.
I found out through years of procrastinating my healing journey, that one must sit with the suffering to transform that feeling into new beauty.
to pull out the weeds and plant new seeds.
Working within my own mind, along with various therapists, programs and finally my intuitive healer, I came to realizemy frequency was not matched by where I was placing myself or the company I was choosing to repeatedly keep. Due to this, my energy was being drained and I did not know why.
We are all on different paths in this life, and it is up to us to intuitively follow the situations we feel best.
I was ignoring my intuition.
Unaware at that time that one of the most important masteries in life is reactance, I replied to my feelings through self-destruction.
After years of healing, I now acknowledge and love my soul. When I fill my cup to feel balanced and aligned, I float through life at my highest frequency. The key is to use the proper tools, to know yourself, and to master alignment in any situation. The mastery of self in any possible situation occurs with surrender to the Divine path and faith in the unknown. This is the journey of life.
Life is meant to be experienced. The universe gifted us with endless beauty in the world to embrace in full presence. In order to live as your highest self, you must nourish your soul, honor your mind and respect your body, because all you are is a gift.
Through my mental health journey, I have come to see that true healing starts within.
Mental health disorders are partially caused by from unhealed behavior projections within people. Individuals who either have not begun to do their inner work or are unsure how to begin. Wherever you are at is exactly where you are meant to be, for it is your choice how to move forward.
The holistic approach to mental health prevents the mental health disorder from developing.
By healing the trauma and wounds of the past, or of recent experiences, one is able to shed that past self and live presently.
To do the work is a choice that each individual must decide upon.
The inevitable darkness of healing acts as stepping stones for one to reveal their truth, their full authentic self.
I encourage all to do their work. I hope to not only be your cheerleader, but to be a resource for tools along your way.
Ra <3
