I currently live on O’ahu where I am pursuing my Masters of Social Entrepreneurship and Change hybrid through Pepperdine University. I am an ocean lover, yogi, and lover of life. My days are filled with an intuitive mixture of practicing yoga, exercising, meditating, writing, drawing, surfing, reading, cooking, and spending time in nature. The past two years have been full of realizations, awakening to my truth, and remembering my path. My soul’s purpose is to guide others along their journeys in a holistic manner: 

through mind, body and soul synchronicity. 

How I arrived at this point…. 

My path planned for 22 years of life experience full of struggle, love, fear, trauma, and health struggles in order for me to be exactly where I am. I now see how my struggles and experiences were inevitable. I spent years living unbalanced, with physical and mental health struggles outweighing all else. As I reflect, I wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. 

This has not always been my perspective. I have had the autoimmune disease of the Thyroid since I was very young. At the age of 12 I was put on Levothyroxine to treat my Hashimotos Hypothyroidism. I struggled with symptoms my entire life. If you are unaware of Hashimotos, symptoms include fatigue, lack of hormone production, joint pain, puffiness, and headaches. In addition to Hypothyroidism, IBS took over my daily life. I lived in constant discomfort. My health was a maze of different factors all contributing to my loss of health and self. My mental health worsened my digestion, and my thyroid affected my hormones and energy. Each struggle affected another because everything is connected. The answer was to pull the malfunctions from the root cause. My mom and I dove into the idea of food as medicine and holistic remedies. Years of trying new ways of eating “healthy” led me down a dark spiral which ended up making me lose touch with why I cared in the first place: to heal. Over time, my anxiety became friends with an unhealthy relationship with food.

Accompanying physical struggles, I lived many years stuck in my own shadow. In high school, I was lost. I was unaware of myself and I spiraled into depression. Rooting from physical health issues and chemical imbalance, my basis was already longing to be healed. Ignorance of my undeniable state of being, and an unhealthy social environment, led to disaster.  I became self destructive. I reached a point of inability to function. My normal joys and passions did not excite me any longer.  I was being bullied in school and felt extremely unworthy.  I felt numb. I did not see a point in being me. I did not see a point in being at all, and I did not care if I disappeared tomorrow. My parents had no choice but to bring me to an outpatient therapy program. I barely went to school senior year. I was in the program everyday instead. 

Longing to help me, my mom would always say “she wants the old Rara back.” I was incapable at that time to know what she meant. In a constant cycle of self blame, I took her words to mean I was a bad person. That exact thought is something I soon learned is an illusion, a mere distortion of reality. I now see the truth. The old Ra is the true Ra. Growing up I was “Smiley Rylie,” and I lived through joy and love. Passionate about whatever I was doing, I always felt like a student of life. I lost that during this time in high school. I allowed the darkness to fog my mirror of truth. To a point of such depth that I did not want to do anything. I could not walk into a workout class without having an anxiety attack soon leading me to drive straight home and hide in my room. I would go to the program and come home. The uncountable tears in my car were my savior in these times. Not only was I struggling to function, I could not interact with my family who are my biggest support system. 

I will never forget laying in bed crying one night. My whole family was hanging out watching The Voice, and they kept calling me in to join them. I claimed I did not want to in a disrespectful manner, yet that was not the truth. I wanted more than anything to go spend time with my loved ones, my people. It felt like there was a darkness holding me back. I felt unworthy of enjoying life. This darkness was undefinable, but it took over my being. It restricted my love of life, my free will to enjoy each day, my body to dance to wonderful music, and my soul to flow with the wonders of the world. I was lost. My mirror was fogged with heavy layers.

Heading into college, I was fine because I was not at my lowest point anymore. I felt as though I was okay because I had friends, and I felt confident within myself. Unknowing at the time that these temporary, external experiences were not true self worth, I was still lost. I was still subconsciously struggling. My existing mal-coping mechanisms led to substance use for further coping. I ignored the care of my body and mind, which made my health issues worse. I lost myself in the party scene and was not truly happy. Once I reached junior year, self doubt had taken over. Filled with anxiety, dangerous ideations, and struggles with nourishing myself, the darkness was rooted too deep. I ultimately had a decision: to die or to live. I decided it was time to face the darkness.
Getting to a point of no other option but up, I made the choice to transform my life for the better. I slowly began to help myself and do my inner work. I practiced a shift in perspective; being broken is not a trait, and I have realized my mental health struggle was simply one battle that my soul won in this lifetime. I detached myself from maladaptive coping mechanisms. I began to read and write daily. The first book that changed my life is The Mastery of Love by Don Miguel Ruiz. This book helped me tap into awareness and my spiritual side. I have felt a draw to spirituality all my life, but this was the time-period I truly embraced it. I dove into Toltec teachings, Buddhism, and self-meditation. I fell in love with the same feeling they all brought; a feeling of empowerment and love of discomfort. In addition to rediscovering my spirituality and love of reading, my undergraduate classes in psychology at San Diego State took on a new meaning. I was excited to go to class and learn the depth of the human psyche and the hows and whys of people's behaviors. I decided to live through all the teachings I read and the realizations I was gifted with. I approached my inner fear with a no-looking-back zest for life. I have read many books, discovered my passion for writing, and fell in love with meditation. Compared to where I was at the end of 2022, the spring of 2023 felt like I had returned home to my soul’s path.

Through a mixture of books, psyche, yoga, practice of re-wiring my thoughts, and meditation, I have shed discords, let go of attachments, released domestications, and healed past trauma. The way to inner peace is to unlearn all you have been taught and learn about yourself.

I feel as though I know my truth. 

I have awakened to the law of one: we are all the same. 

As a piece of the universe, we are made up of energy, of pure light, and it is our choice how we manifest that into our eternal life experience. Life is about discovering yourself day by day, all while experiencing the wonders around you. Free of shoulds and comparison. I live through truth with knowledge that I am unique because I am me. We are all one, yet there is not one of us that is the same. I see the light in myself and all beings. I live with pride that I have overcome so many mental health struggles. I want to thank a few individuals for helping guide me along my way.

Thank you to the Genpsych therapy program for being my lifesaver in high school. The CBT and DBT programs gave me a basis to take a step out of the darkness. Genpsych is the program which sparked my journey. 

Thank you to my intuitive therapist, Sarah, for giving me not only the holistic tools to return home to my soul, but for her mere presence. She has taught me to transform struggle into opportunity. 

Thank you to many authors and doctors whose teachings have guided me along the way: Dr. Joe Dispenza, Thich Nhat Hanh, Guy Ballard, Don Miguel Ruiz, Don Jose Ruiz, and Don Miguel Ruiz Jr. 

Thank you to my family who supported me through it all and never gave up on the light they knew was in me. My family not only supported me but encouraged me to keep on keeping on because this too shall pass. 

With all of this guidance and self discovery, I have been gifted tools from a greater source on how to transcend and rewire your brain. Now is the time to continue on my self journey all while living through my next step: helping others. I feel I hold an endless amount of tools to help others transform their lives holistically, free of medications. 

I am eternally grateful for my life. I see the opportunity in the blessings and in the lessons. Life is impermanent. It is your choice how you live, how you see the world around you, and how you flow with life’s waves. Through surrender to each moment, flow state has shown me true bliss. You are capable of anything, you must believe it. The world is a place for our souls to explore within our homes we call our human bodies; it is for fun. Peace of Ra is a safe space within the chaos to explore your intuition and live freely.  Come as you are and take what you need. 

Welcome to the energetic sanctuary of your dreams. 

Peace of Ra